Wednesday, April 27, 2005

Self hurting!

I was in a bad mood last night and thought that I am hurting myself by not studying. Then as a flash it struck me, is it possible to hurt yourself ??? ...knowingly? I wondered for sometime ...maybe it is. Don't I hurt myself sometimes just to show that I can endure the pain ? Like cycling down 12-13 kms to town and not stopping once. I do not study when I really need to. Then I decided to ask about it from you-know-who, yes the giant himself The Google God! ...And here is what I found. This site is very scary, giving an insight on the darkest of the human pyschology. Is it all really true? how can someone "cut" himself/herself? won't it hurt ? Hurt...some people really don't feel it because

"Some people still don't feel pain because the production of endorphins is too high. Endorphins act as natural opiates, pain killers, and anesthetics. When too many of them are being produced, a person does not feel pain.

Having said all this ... yes, there are people who self-injure who feel pain. Of course there are. To some people, this pain is welcome. They feel like they are bad in some way and that they deserve to hurt. Or they may like the pain because the sharper physical pain blunts out the emotional pain."

Hmm so the hurt funda is now clearer. But but but why would I do it in the first place ???
Reason in my view is the fucking mind! it plays games ..Why do people drink ? dope? just to relieve the pain(?) ...this may be a similar effort towards the same. Creating a pain greater than the emotional pain to dwarf it in front of the physical one.
Wow ! this is something I am gonna search more about. Don't worry I am not going to be a "cutter"... I ve better things to do :)

Sunday, April 17, 2005

What is Google?

Yeah I know that there exists an article somewhere with the same heading. But in my view thats not the future of google. If google had aspirations to get into O.S. market they would have started doing stuff oriented towads the same. But all google tries to do is to do with browser...they hire guys from mozilla, they get a search utility going which has a browser based interface and what not. All this clearly shows that GooOS may remian a fiction for ever.
From where I see it, the future of google seems to be much more inclined towards web applications than OS. What I see coming from google in coming years is an integration of Gmail, Orkut(which as of now is not google product as such), picassa etc into one complete utility where you once log in you may do usual mail stuff, it remembers your settings and serves news to you as you want it, it shows all your friends and you may do the addictive scrapping stuff, also the normal search thing which may also be customized according to your taste and ofcourse you may blog also from the same utility.
So much for integrated utility. What more google may offer? Google Office or GOffice is the next thing that comes to my mind.Google may start a service creating a killer app where you can create a document like word (imagine writing a project report with that powerful google search, with prefecthing on, on every word, definitions, spell check, conversions, stock quotes, trivia, encyclopedia, exact distance between two places and a satellite map of the same, including video to this document, current news related to the topic, personal views in form of blogs, book search, journal serach, directory search ,image search ... an what not...An office with all the information at your door step...Also this office suite would allow you to save that "word" file or ppt in a briefcase in the gmail account and when you need it just start the presentation from the GOffice itself. Also it may allow you to publish the document on the web by just clicking a button.
You may also get advice from google answers for the document in no time. Possibilities are just limitless!